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| right now im generaly bored and what else urm tommaro we get out early because of somethings the teachers have to do ^^ then my sugar is going to alices house so i can possibly see him their ^^ it depends if my parents think i have been 'good' this weekend i can probly beg them to see if i can ^^ ill try and ask tonight and rara finaly gave me this book of hers i have been trying to borrow in like FORVER! but she couldent find it and u know what? it was in their storage closet..no not her closet but STORAGE?! rara ...how in the HELL did it end up THEIR?! o well ill probly end up reading it like in geometry and/or pe and i wont kill it its perfectly safe and if someone else squrews it up ill chase after them with an axe trying to get it back?k?
haha
(stares at other self)
me:hello..
I:...
me/I: *glares at eachother*
me: *Chases I with a mace*
I: *runs from me*
me: COME BACK HERE COWARD
i: coward?! i think NOT
i: *chases me with a sword*
Me/I: *Fights till they both get lazy at the same exact time and then sits down and drinks some really cheap wine*
Me: how come I we never get along?
I: because im the evil self and ur the good self
me: me isnt the good self im the evil self and ur the good self*
me/i: *glares and then has a fight till the death (not really more like tillthey both fall down and sleep)*
THE END!
how do u like my mini theater! isnt it awsome? i think ill have to write shit like this more often ^^
but am I me or I right now? hummmmm | | |
| (Really for 10/10/04)
tehe this weekend was funish! ok first of all parents went out of town friday around noon *.* uhm and well the bad part was i had to stay at my cousins house but it was just me ,cousin ,sister (annoying little bitch i hope she rots/burns in hell~!) and my aunt well uhm lesse well saturday i spent like 1:??-8:-?? at mikeys house~ yay! it was fun ^^
I had rara over their for like 30 minutes cuz i told my mom i would be at rachels house and i needed proof so i told rara to come and well my mom never ended up calling and mikey bribed rara $20 to come and well she only stayed for like 30-45 min?~ so rara if ur reading this u at least are going to pay him bck $10 be nice damnit~!but during that time we played ffxi and i played alices chara cuz well i didnt want to make him pay an extra dollar for me(i feal guilty) ...and well after rara left we sorta went and layed down on his bed and watched scary movie 3 and undercover brother XD funny as hell XD and well during the boring parts..well..*quite* im not gunna tell u what me and my boyfriend do in our spare time so >P on u XD and urm what else uh after that we went walking outside for like 10 minutes and then we got back and layed down again and watched tv (during both times i might add excessive cuddling ^^) and every 5 minutes either of his sisters would pop in and be like...O hello SORRY FOR BOTHERING U ..it was sorta funny though XD tehe but it was aquard this one time...HEY im not telling U >P sry but that part is personal XD ill probly tell rara if she REALLy wants to know but aside from that NO WAY XD haha sorry but ya uhm and afterthat well i went back to my aunts and went on my laptop their i was talking to my sugar for a while then well i got sleepy and went to sleep
Then today i went to my little cousins house because it was her birthday and it was as boring as hell~! i mean HELL would be WAY more entertaining ! i was their in a room doing nothign but thinking and laying around for like 3-4 HOURS! BORING VERY VERY BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then afterthat i went home and like an hour later my parents come back from their trip (well they went up to this dear hunting land my grandparents just bought to do some stuff up their and they took like half the family too and camped out their all weekend ) and well then i told them to go back it was funny though xD tehe and im starting on my presents that im making for my friends XD okies so baibai for now >3 | | |
| sry but ur gunna have to wait a while before i update again lesse like after school?baibai | | |
| Shit..im angrey again and semi depressed like *sigh* im trying to listen to somewhat calming music while my evil bitch of a sister cant go in the other dmn tv and watch it somewhere else! i hope she burns >.< and about my last entree i was alone and somewhat in one of my depressionish moods they happen alot and i get over them after a bit of drawing somewhat... blah...i need more bigger drawing paper and paint..
painting is fun
but i have no paint,canvasas
all i have is
pastels and computer paper and i dont like using computer paper and i dont want to draw dead people in the sketchbook i use for school cuz ppl look at that one alot... yar..im bored and i want to see my sugar but i cant go to alices house for the next 2 weeks cuz i just came back from her house and well we didnt hear the phone and when i went home they were pissed off and didnt care >.< i mean i wasent dileberatly trying to do that! what in the fuck is their problem?! shit and they wonder why i cant stand them! gah hope they burn in hell too >.< sorry but im full of evil fealings twords lots of ppl but its mainly twords family..wait..its all family and some certain ppl that are indirectly pissing me off...its not their fault and they have no idea they are but they are and i cant stand them but still..grr on them i and hope they realize what their doing damn it!cuz i know its not fair doing that but grrrrrrrrrrr >.< sry but im easly angered at the moment.....bai bai for now | | |
| i feal like no one cares anymore..im home alone i dont want to be here with family ..i cant stand them.. Rara is going to beaumont,alice is too sleepy to come over(i cant stay their till she spends the night over here),meeshes boyfriend mikey is staying at his dads house for the weekend and well..i just feal like the only person without an actual life.i have no goals.never thought of a future.i cant like something without hating it a couple of months after.my mom says shit that i dont want her to that makes me feal bad and she knows it that draws me closer to just getting it all over with..i cant stand it anymore...just kill me now dammnit...i feal so dead..maby it would be better to just not let anybody in then i wont have to feal nothing at all..that would be better but very hard to do... and to comment on my current song of choice..thats exactly what ill be , i do have a very low opinion on myself becasue i hold no self worth and i will more than likely die before i turn 25 and i know everyone says sucicide is selfish and shit and is 'in' well to be damn clear on this i dont give a damn what in hell is 'in' and everyone that thinks so can rot in the deepest most horrible place in hell for all i give a damn ..and yes for once in my life i would like to be selfish...and it would be the last damnit ... | | |
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